Saturday, June 20, 2009
met up with bee just now at bishan..
had a short walk..
he called...
she suddenly snapped..
now..i think i'm her most hated person in the world..
brought her home..almost..
saw him...
saw her..
she ran..
i gave chase..
she talked...
i was lost for words..
she left for home..
he wanted to meet me..
so i went..
thought maybe he was crying or upset..
saw him at hk cafe happily with his frens like as if nothing has happened..
chatted with him..
he said he's glad that it's finally over..
he said i should go for her now..
i said i was upset..i didn't know what to say to her..
i said i would want to go for it..but it's ultimately her choice.
he said he was happy..and that he would not want her to contact him anymore.
he also said he's not gonna look for her..
i said i'll wait for her to call..
if she wants to call..
he said that he's just playing with her..
i was angry..but i didn't say anything..
i just kept quiet like a coward..
he talked quite abit..
high and mighty about how he has many other girls outside..
after that we talked about other topics.. and we left..
i thought to myself..i shan't trust his words so much..
i know him...what he says to me will be totally different from what he says to other people..
but i'm angry..how come he's the one feeling happy and i'm the one feeling gloomy when it's supposed to be the other way round??
he image keeps appearing in my mind..even now.. i thought about it.. i want her.. she said before "bee..if one day i abandone you..don't abandone me kae.." i won't..i won't abandone her.. i love too much..i intend to keep the promises i made to her in the photo album..
lucifer..am i a monster?? if you could talk what would you say to me?? would you console me?? would you scold me?? would you like everyone else tell me to forget about her??
sometimes i wish you could talk..but thanks for listening luci..
-suaidi-
