the spaces between your fingers are meant to fill with mine

Monday, April 28, 2008

well..here are some of the pictures i took yesterday...

anwyays..today was a really really bad day for me..i miss her alot..i didn't have the courage to msg her...i got scolding from one of the course instructors..and got scolding from other ppl..that was in the morning..i couldn't concentrate on what the instructor was saying..i couldn't even make sense of the slides being shown on the projector..

it was about after lunch...she msged..i felt so happy...i don't know whyy..maybe i got feelings for her..i think it should no longer be a "maybe" it's i really have feelings for her..but i daren't do anything..it's like i'm bound to lose someway.. i don't even know if she feels the same way for me..well..she's off to sleep already..hope she has a sweet dream..

tmr's my last day on course..that means i won't get to come out and meet her as often as when i'm on course..i hope she'll be fine..i'm afraid other ppl might hurt her when she's outside...i don't know...

bee...by the time u read this..should be after skul hrs le baa..i'll be having my test..and hope i can pass with flying colours... i wann someone to feel proud for me..remember to drink lots of water k..and the antibiotics..and the cough mixture..love you lots..

xiaohai killed @ 11:43 PM

somewhere......over the rainbowwwwww...
tears up high.........some...whereeee...over the rain boww....

this time..my feelings are true..
but will my wish come true??

trying hard to prove it to you..
making you believe in the words "i love you"

hopefully one day..i'll get you..
then i shall do my best to make you..

the happiest gerl there'll ever be..
just you and me..

-xiaohai-

xiaohai killed @ 6:04 PM

can't really sleep..so i decided to blog...it's already 6 am..hmns..maybe i slept too much in the afternoon ytd.. going for course in about 1 hr..so bored.. guess i think too much already

sorry bee..for like um..making you feel controlled..really really sorry.. who am i to do so rite..anyway..dono if u'll avoid me from now on..but then..i guess that's better.. at least i won't harbour hopes..u got alot of good frens around you..call or msg me when u need me bahs..bubye..

course gonna start le..i dono how i gonna survive the whole day since i never slept a wink.. and tmr's the last day..and the theory paper..i wanna pass..can get outstanding soldier..can up rank more faster..i dono..

saving up for my study fees..gonna get extra 400 as study bursary next month..i dono how i'm gonna survive anyway..need to get a part time job for myself..save up for a bike..get a bike..hmns..so many things to do..hope i'll get a bike before i turn 1 year soldier..another 5 months..

really cannot afford a gerlfren now..but i yearn this loving feeling..it makes me feel good..it brightens up my day..it's something i'm willing to die for... *sigh*

xiaohai killed @ 5:59 AM

Sunday, April 27, 2008

lolls..i got nothing to do..anyway..the website's cool..look mama!~ i'm in a mag...i'm famous...lolls.

xiaohai killed @ 6:18 PM

Saturday, April 26, 2008

we saw monkies.

way out!~

see the tree top walk distance? 1.4km

see the distance now? 3.9km it was before actually

macritchie resevoir

she was lying down on the couch

at my balcony..

the drinks.

anyway...todayy was rather nice..sharon msg me around 10+ then a few hours later she called and ask me where's my hse?? i got stunned for a while. o.O hahaha..then she came..and brought me bread and sugar cane juice...how sweet of her.. so she used my comp..and we did some weird stuff with each other's msn..hahaha

afterwhich we went out..she said she wanted to go to upper pierce resevoir..but i dono how to go..so i told her lets go to macritchie resevoir instead since i noe where it is..on the way there..actually upper pierce resevoir is near macritchie..hahaha..anyway..reached the place..and we walked..and walked...and walkeeeedddd...it was a damn long journey..up slopes most the way..she wanted to go to the treetop walk..but in the end..it was closed...hahaha..it's okae..i was sick today..so didnt have much energy.. anyway after that we went to thomson plaza..and walked around..she ate at kfc there..

then we went to 404..she wanted to see someone..and didn't want to go home so early anwyay..so sat there watch me and the other guy play bball.then around 930..send her home..that's my day..i'm still sick btw..-.-"

xiaohai killed @ 10:49 PM

Thursday, April 24, 2008

so..todayy was the start of my day for being class 2nd in-charge throughout the duration of the course..todayy was really boring...we were having a practical test on communications equipment..so as the course starts i had sit outside the classroom and control the human traffic flow going in and out..and i sat there from 9am till 6 pm when the test..it was very gruelling..everyone had to surrender their phones to the commanders..and that got me really really bored..and i was the last person to take the test with the class IC. anyway everything finally ended and i got an A..hahas..so happy..now only left the practical..

went to study just now..i'm planning on continuing my diploma in mass comm. so yeahs..got alot of classes and revisions to do..before i forget everything..so i'll really be drained in future..i already feel like dying being the class IC -.-"

anyway..about ytd..went to meet up with my old classmates..and i'm acting with lilian in a short film that's gonna be reviewed by jack neo.. hahas..and lilian's acting as my wife..so we're there crapping so much...calling each other..baby..honey..darling..dear and stuff..it's was all fun..=) hope i get to see the finished product soon..then i'll post the pictures we took on my blog kae =)

i'm very tired today.. gonna sleep soon...some ppl don't know how to take care of herself.. -.-" 23 days coughing already...and counting.. -.-

i don wanna talk about love now..no one takes me seriously..and it's very demoralising at the state i'm in..with nothing to my name..no gerls will be attracted naturally.. hmns..

xiaohai killed @ 11:43 PM

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

whoo..the price..kinda cheap..i spent more on 2 ppl on jap food before..

sharon's food

her noodles..-.-

and her salmon sashimi..

now there's mine..

ichiban boshi

well..above are some of the photos of my lunch with sharon earlier this month..haha..kinda weird if u see a gerl much more than i eat..interesting yeahs..hahaha..anyway..the restaurant was a nice place..good ambience..good service..maybe too good..when i never call the waiter..they ownself come..hahaha..and the food was nice.. i will go again..definitely..

well nothing much happened since i last posted..kinda sian i guess...and fish came back from taiwan on sunday..he called me..and met up with me and sharon..then alfan came..and blah blah blah..

so for todayy 22nd april..or yesterday to be exact..
well went to the course...boring as usual..i always kena aim one..dono whyy..and the class ic got beaten up by me and 2 other ppl..if he still shoot our names come out..he sure die one..anyway...released at around 6.30 pm..afterwhich i rushed home to get bee her medicine..bu hui xiang.. tell her got wet in the rain already faster go bathe..don't want listen then next day sick..hahaha..anyway...brought her her medicines..she got a scare from me when i crept up from behind her...you should see the expression on her face man..hahaha..damn funny.. then i went to northpoint..she must've listened to me todayy and ate her dinner and ate her meds and sleep..i hope so..

anyway..went to northpoint to meet fish..and dean..then played for a bit..went to fish's place to accompany him change clothes..then came alfan..and we started crappin..till northpoint.. "WO DE PI AH!!~" till someone's face turned black..i shall not mention who..haha...cute luhs..then we went to macs to eat dinner..then went home..one by one..alfan went first..then fish..then dean..then me.. -.-" naturally i'm the last..i live in sembawang..haha..shall not crap about it..

now.
i'm so damn tired..i don't know how many km i clicked since the start of the course till now by walking..should be more than 50 km le bahs..and i'm so damn tired..always walking here and there..i'm gonna sleep already..nite nite..=)

xiaohai killed @ 12:08 AM

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

sorry for triple posting..but i really am sad luhs..it's like hmns..i got no one to talk to todayy..i'm feeling so so lonely..feels like...like i've been used or something.. but that's not the case..i do so much..and don't really want anything in return..i just want some company to be with..

i've been single for so long already..4 mths? well it's not really hard to find a gerlfren..but to find one that u really love is another thing..and there's other factors to consider..such as..will she feel the same way..can she stand me earning so less..does she want to be in a long relationship. etc.

i'm so old already..all i want is a stable long lasting relationship..i'm not really asking for much..i just seek some attention.. moreover..i'm in army now..after i finish..i'll go back to studies...and then get a stable high income job..i really need to settle down already..and quick..no more slacking around..gangster stuff and all...

i just wann some company...someone i could rightfully call my gerl.. someone who could shower me with lots of attention.. that's all..is that really such a difficult thing to ask for?? i hope not bahs.. hmns..

xiaohai killed @ 12:44 AM

the nite out..

in army le..

before..

way before

so yeahs..here's some pics..there like hundreds of them..but i can't really post all todayy..i'll try to post more when i got the time...anyway...i'm on course now..till the 29th of april. =)

xiaohai killed @ 12:36 AM