Monday, April 30, 2007

ahaha..she on my lap take photo..lolls.

so yeahs..woke up damn early in the morning..our sun plaza cowboy brother called me..ask me come out peii him and kuay bu at 334 coffeeshop..but i was too tired..told him i can't make it ah..very very tired..slept again after that..till about 11+ fish called me..

he asked me to come to sun plaza accompany him and his mom go ntuc buy thing..so i went lo...didn't really buy anything..hahas..after that me and fish went home first..then came back to SP meet desmond and dickson..lolls..i passed dickson the PDD card..lolls..so yeahs ppl..yishun 3 top 5 yishun mt2 drivers came over to PDD..lolls really happy..they are desmond..dickson..and another guy..i forgot his name..ahahahs...i think i too pro already that's whyy..ahhahahs..

anyway..i went home after that..cos fish had to go to reporting..i went home and changed..oh yeahs..saw quite alot of ppl todayy...saw hazel..elaine..aeroplane gerl..linda..aiyah..many larhs..lazy type all come out..todayy so sianns...then came back sun plaza...playy few rounds of mt2..i almost break my record..DAMN DIVIDER.!! otherwise..i'll be singapore's top 5 already..wtf man..then went home in the evening...

called fish..ask him go down playy bball..okayy larhs..playy with china ppl..so rough..i rough back lo..then fish the leg keep cramp..fucker..then i went home already..

tmr i'll be going to jurong point with mother and gordon..i don't think i'll playy much mt2..it's been oh so boring..i think i'm gonna playy a new game soon..battle gear 4 tuned...hahas..it's like a car driving simulator..with H-type 6 gear manual transmission..with handbrake..and clutch..so yeahs..very very nice game to playy =)

Saturday, April 28, 2007

bahs...went to bishan todayy..okayy lo..kinda okayy...but sianns...went with fish..then at there fish take gerl no.. then got a group of gerls keep looking at me and fish..they came up to us..i tot they wann take no. skali they ask " cann spare me one cigeratte?" lolls..siian diiao..got 2 gerls..one of them call me...i tot they wann take my no. skali they ask me "cann spare the both of us one stick cigeratte?" wtf!! how come todayy so jialat one..

so from my brilliant deduction. gerls at bishan don't have cigeratte of their own..like wtf..then me and fish realised that we no money go home..so yeahs..use ur imaginations kid..it was a long long long long long long long long long long wayy..

took plenty of pictures todayy..will post them tomorrow kkaes. =)

btw..SOMEONE TODAYY PUT ME AND FISH AEROPLANE AH..LOLL. YTD STILL SAYY PROMISE WHEN WAKE UP ALREADY WILL COME DOWN LOOK FOR US..AHAHAHAHAHA...u noe hu u are yeahs? =)

ahahaha..he caught me take picture of him..lolls.

hmns..i guess it's over?? i got ditched TWICE by the same person..aiiyo..what the fuck larhs...reason being??

1st. her dad disaproves of the relationship.
2nd. she doesn't want me and her dad to quarrel.
3rd. she doesn't want her dad to get ppl to whack me.
4th. she doesn't want her dad to find my address.
5th. she thinks that this is the best wayy so that me and her dad would not kill each other.

aiiyo..hen fan arhs..i don't noe..now i can't seem to be able to find sleep at nite.hmns..i don't noe...my hand so itchy..feel like whacking ppl...hmns...i want to smoke..i want to drink..i'm so tired of all these things...hmns..hope i can just lose myself...

will be accompanying fish tmr to bishan..tmr got the campus superstar..then fish wann go there take gerls no. i don't noe..main purpose for me is to go playy mt2..i'm left with 13 stars to 2200 stars..so yeahs..go chiong stars..hmns..

hmns..i guess it's over?? i got ditched TWICE by the same person..aiiyo..what the fuck larhs...reason being??

1st. her dad disaproves of the relationship.
2nd. she doesn't want me and her dad to quarrel.
3rd. she doesn't want her dad to get ppl to whack me.
4th. she doesn't want her dad to find my address.
5th. she thinks that this is the best wayy so that me and her dad would not kill each other.

aiiyo..hen fan arhs..i don't noe..now i can't seem to be able to find sleep at nite.hmns..i don't noe...my hand so itchy..feel like whacking ppl...hmns...i want to smoke..i want to drink..i'm so tired of all these things...hmns..hope i can just lose myself...

will be accompanying fish tmr to bishan..tmr got the campus superstar..then fish wann go there take gerls no. i don't noe..main purpose for me is to go playy mt2..i'm left with 13 stars to 2200 stars..so yeahs..go chiong stars..hmns..

Thursday, April 26, 2007

just when everything is starting to get better...it got worst...hmns..darlingg's dad is disaproving of our relationship..and as a result..he using the "black" way to find out where i stay..and then he'll come and get me.. i dono but..i only got one sentence...chi kua mai..i already prepared myself when i got into being a gangster...i'll die somedayy..it doesn't really matter if i die getting beaten up or whatever...die-ing is die-ing..


so what am i to do?? frens?? any suggestions?? but jiang zhen de larhs..her dad wann come find me..call me larhs..wha lan oi..call ppl find me..like cann find like this..he also dono how i look like..he think he wad? like james bond ah..find ppl so easy.. her dad wann my no. go get from her larhs...waste time call ppl find..cannot find one...ahahhahas...


but aiyah..i also dono what everyone is doing..i now very fan..sumore stomach empty..kanina..her father find me that time better when i not hungry...cos a hungry suaidi is an angry suaidi..

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

hmns..haven't post for quite a few days..so yeahs..went to far east..got my phone..dear got the same phone =) K618i both also same white colour..hahas..cute rite.yeahs..

not much of a story to type...hahas..my life is boring..yeahs..gotta look for other interesting stuff to do..i'll post next time =))

Monday, April 23, 2007

hmns..so todayy..yeapp..i went with darlingg to the bank..i needed to replace my atm card..and she wanted to bank in her cheque..so yepp..after that i went off..to reporting at MCYS.. so sianns..okayy lo..i got my written warning..so literally..i can't do suicidal things..hahas..afterwhich i went to woodlands..met up with ham..got my money..and left for bukit timah..played pooll..slacked..got myself a bottle of beer..and smoked..while waiting for goldfish and my brother to..ehem..yeahs..

then i went to bugis..met up with aloy..the fucker..lolls. aloy broke pdd's c1 out record..wtf..and i placed pdd in 5th on cw..not really a good run..-.-" 4'32"800+ not my target..i actually wanted to break my personal best..which is 4'32"416..slowly trying..i'm sure i'll be able to make it..so yeap..darlingg came to find me at bugis the arcade..lolls. watched me play rock fever with aloy..and some mt2..we went home after that..i'll post the pics some other days yeahs..=)

Sunday, April 22, 2007

so yeahs...my legs fucking bleeding..my phone is wasted..and my comp i think is beyond repair..hmns..so many things happened ytd..and i wasn't in the right mood..and a hungry me is an angry me..that's whyy..

i fucking quarrel with my father ytd nite and fucking kicked the damn comp..and so yeahs..let him feel how loosing 1500 for quarreling with me feel like..cool rite..and i think my phone's a gonner..the lcd's spoilt..hmns..i dono many things happened..hais...

think and think and think till i slept..and woke up so damn early..like 4 plus am..and slept again at 8am.hmns..just woke up..now my whole body's aching..from too much sleep i think.. o.O

so hmn..i'll be meeting aloy tmr..going to break some records..that's what i need a phone for..to break records..and video it down..i want to be made god!! NEW BELT LINE CLOCKWISE GOD!! i want to be god..goddamnit..

so yeahs...my legs fucking bleeding..my phone is wasted..and my comp i think is beyond repair..hmns..so many things happened ytd..and i wasn't in the right mood..and a hungry me is an angry me..that's whyy..

i fucking quarrel with my father ytd nite and fucking kicked the damn comp..and so yeahs..let him feel how loosing 1500 for quarreling with me feel like..cool rite..and i think my phone's a gonner..the lcd's spoilt..hmns..i dono many things happened..hais...

think and think and think till i slept..and woke up so damn early..like 4 plus am..and slept again at 8am.hmns..just woke up..now my whole body's aching..from too much sleep i think.. o.O

so hmn..i'll be meeting aloy tmr..going to break some records..that's what i need a phone for..to break records..and video it down..i want to be made god!! NEW BELT LINE CLOCKWISE GOD!! i want to be god..goddamnit..

Thursday, April 19, 2007

talking to someone now..see..if u talk nicely..won't the conversation be pleasant?? i don't wish for trouble..and i think more frens are better than more enemies..

yes..now isnt it simpler to talk?? hahas..hmnn..it only brings back memories.. sweet and painful..anyway..i'm sorry for saying things that are harsh..yes..u're plagued with problems also..i understand..but life's like this..u make decisions..u don't look back.. no point regretting..am i right??

yeahs..anyway..i feel better now..siuol is really a weird person..he got abit siao dui arhs..i dono...fish also said so..-.-"

hahas..not gonna post much todayy..can't think much..my head hurts..

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

yeahs..quite alot of things happened the past few days...yeahs...finally..i got word from my officer that i won't be going to prison after all.. the PSB directors decided to give me a chance and gave me a written warning..


hmn fish's father passed away ytd..i feel so sad for him..the feeling of losing a loved one is never a pleasant experience..well i dono.. but life's like this...there's bound to be trajic moments in everyones' lives..

met up with mother's exbf todayy..well he's actually a very nice guy..had a long talk with him..a very very long talk...i won't be going into details..but yeahs...i gotta admit..he's really a nice person..

hmn..so i'll be going to the the funeral everydayy..helping fish out..and to look after him...stress will bring a person to do unimaginable things...well..for us which are fish..me and mother's ex..i guess life is at a low point..but hmn..if u look at it in a different direction..this will make us grow into better people..

well i guess i already lost hope..heard the story..and i guess i do not wish to hurt myself even more..after all the things i did.. i didn't recieve the 2nd chance...she never looked in my direction.. i never got the chance i needed..all i wish is to see her happy?? that's what siuol said..well i don't noe..but love is selfish..u have to strive to keep your loved one with you..i got the same comfortable feeling when i was with her...and i don't think i'll get the same feeling for a very very long time..


well it's not that i don't want to start a new relationship...but i just can't cheat your feelings..and i can't cheat my own feelings..if i do this..the relationship would not be strong..do u understand??well the other reason was because that i'm afraid that i would go to prison..i won't be so wicked as to get into a relationship when i still feel for my ex.. that's the kind of person i am..


i don't noe...i have so many troubles for myself..and i can't see fish getting troubled..i can't see mother getting troubled..well..i guess i'll always put my frens first before myself..i'm not selfish..those who know me will understand...life is short..i guess mine would be very short..there's a chance that one dayy i may just give up...and leave forever..and i can feel that the day is drawing nearer...

i'm a fool for love..it's so difficult for me to forget..it's difficult for me to hate...and i find it difficult to sayy no.. i have been mesasured..i have been weighed..and i have been found wanting.. we'll see in future should fate brings me smiles..or hatê..

Sunday, April 15, 2007

haven't been blogging recently..cos my hand hurts..so yeahs..tmr i'll be hearing..and i'll see what my sentence is..yeahs...we'll see..

so let's see..father1 owes me 150 bucks...and mother owes me 100 bucks and a pack of cigarettes...

had fun the last couple of weeks.. but no matter how hard i tried..i can't do it..it seems too difficult for me..i dono..this heart of mine is weakened..i still can't forget..well..life's always unfair..no matter how hard u tried..life will always be like this...i tried my best..and i made mistakes...but at least i'm man enough to face it..hmns. i dono..


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Monday, April 09, 2007

i'm at monkiie's house now. i can't type so. monkiie's actually doing the typing for me. aww~ how sweet of her rite? and she even went through the trouble to fetch me at the hospital. i told her not to. hahas.

so yeahs. not a good nite to start with. got into some problems. and when i came back to get you. i got beaten up. i don't really remembered what actually happened. all i remember is that. someone asked if i was from kranji siao. and wham! i got beaten up then i blacked out. omg first time. when i woke up. i was at the hospital with goldfish. alot of things happen lahs.

well she got herself another guy after all. wished she was mine. well got some advices from my closest friends and brothers. i guess whatever is really not mine would not be mine. i was childish. i guess i'm a fool for love. but without her. i wouldn't be me. i actually grew feelings for her a long way back. hmn. forget it what has happened has happened. i don't know who called to beat me up but i don't mind. i don't ask for much. being a gang member getting into a fight is expected.

actually saw her with her new boyfriend. and i got heartbroken at that point of time. but the fury came from within me. i can't describe the feeling. hais. i just can't control my temper. if i could then none of this would happen to me. but well let bygones be bygones. she hates me now. that wasn't what i wanted. i dreaded if she hated me. hais. i just want to be a normal friend. i want to be happy. i guess i don't have fate with girls i truly love. why is this happening to me.

ah forget it. i don't wish to say anymore things. it'll only make me sad. i wish to thank monkiie for fetching me to her hse to stay. and i wish to thank her for helping me type my post out. well i wish to say that i love her alot. and i still do. it's the love that i've found ever since she's around. and i do certaintly hope that there'll be one day when she'll be in my arms again. and i'll swear that i wouldn't do anything to hurt her. i'll swear that she'll be the happiest girl on earth.

well baby,

i'm sorry, you're my sweetheart. my love my one and only.


typed by: monkiie for xiaohai =)

Thursday, April 05, 2007

hmn..i dono what happened these few days..but i guess.. a "sorry" is all it takes..hmns.. i dono..sorry for me isn't meant to be used so simply..but well i guess..at least it's a form of apologising..and politeness..and i guess..it really takes a lot of courage to sayy sorry.. well.. i guess i'm gonna mia from sun plaza for quite some time.

i feel so sad..feel so lonely..the feelings just came back all at once..how i felt..the shattered heart..the coldness..and all those emptiness.. it's 1.50am now..but i just can't seem to find sleep..i dono..whyy am i feeling this way..but i really love her so..the 2nd person i love so much..even if it's for a short time..but well..i dono how to say it out in words... i dono..i can't..hais..well. i'm going out..take some fresh air..and think..

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