the spaces between your fingers are meant to fill with mine

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i know you're feeling very bad and upset..but bee.. this is the one time in your life that you have to be strong..you know that he'll only put more and more pressure on you..and you know that one day you won't be able to handle the pressure.. i know that i'm no one to tell you to do it..but you have to ditch him..ditching is ditching..there's no such things as i don't want to break up with you.. you have to explain that you're leaving him..and not asking him because you want to leave..you have to tell him..TELL him that you want to leave him..not ask.. i'm sorry bee..maybe i'm asking too much too..which is why i'm writing it here..because you won't come and see my blog so often..maybe by the time you read this you and him the relationship will be better..for the time being though..well..hmn..i just don't want to see you get hurt so much..i don't want to see you so sad and upset..i don't want you depressed..

look at our photos bee..they're all happy memories of us being together before.. although there were some tears inbetween those periods of time..our love was strong..i deeply loved you and you deeply loved me too..

bee, i'm sorry about what happened with sherlyn. It was a stupid and horrible thing to do and i regret it hugely. I was an idiot. I'll make it up to you in any way i can. And i promise that nothing like that will ever , ever happen again..

i'm really sincere about this apology bee..and i hope that you won't have any doubts about me making you hurt like i did in the past..because i know that i won't do it again..

hopefully one day i'll get to hold you in my arms and call you girlfriend once again..these times when you are under so much pressure..i hope that i can be you pillar of support..i hope to be the light in your darkness..i'll do anything for you bee..anything so that you'll be happy and smile again..all because i really love you.

-suaidi-

xiaohai killed @ 9:04 PM