Monday, May 12, 2008
bee..u got me too excited already..and i can't sleep the whole night..just thinking about my future..with you..i wanted to e-mail you..so as to keep it private..but then..i don't know if u'll think of it as junk mail and delete it..haha..so i've decided to write it down here..
for a start..i really have no more feelings for her (you know who i'm referring to). after so long..yeahs..it's beem 2 years and a few months since then..anyway bee..i know that bonding is an essential part of being in a relationship..and there's other stuff..one of them..trust..respect..etc etc..
i really appreciate you wanting to bond with silver too..i admit..it's not simple for someone to acknowledge and takkare of someone who's not of ones' own..but i saw it from your words yesterday..you're really putting alot in the "future" relationship..you're being brave bee.. even if u can't overcome it..and decide to leave halfway...i'll still be okae with it.. it's not simple..
i really don't need you to share any burden with me..i just want you to be happy..when u can be happy..enjoying every moment of your time.. your care and love will be the greatest gift for me.. and for me is to give u back the unconditional love that you have given me..
when u could've gone with someone who is more good looking..who can give you more *maybe*.. but you chose to *stick* to me..willingly wanting to share my burden..when you could've just said goodbye.. i'm touched by ur sincerety bee.. you have shown me another side of you..whereby you give all your love to someone..care for them..comfort them...whole-heartedly..
i don't wish to cheapen this kind of relationship by promising you something which i don't know i'll be able to keep..should i do anything wrong...or go astray in future..correct me will you..i've found the motivation in my life again..when there's something else to improve for..i wanna be a good person..i wann to do that with you..for you..
i know alot of ppl will say bad things about me..maybe even gossip..and spread rumours..but if they're not true..i won't care about it..i hope you won't too..i've made alot of enemies in the past bee. hope you understand..but i'll give my all..to you..just for u..i want to make things happen and not to wait for them to happen..
and i hope you'll be there for me.. even if it's going to be very difficult for you.. i love you bee..with all my heart..
-hai-
